In a former life...

In a former life, I thought I had a stressful job with lots of people depending on me. I wore high heels and eyeliner everyday. I thought it was "high pressure" when someone looked to me for an answer in a meeting or a solution to a problem on a project. I thought I had a lot to do and that I worked really long hours.

In a former life, I thought my job was rewarding when I walked away from an event that had run smoothly or a project that was finished successfully. I thought I was learning dependence on God when a mailing went awry or the centerpieces turned out poorly.

But now I know... that was nothing! I didn't know what it was like to have someone depend on me until the little one looked up at me from the bathtub with a look that said, "I hope you know what you're doing, Momma!"

I'm lucky if i get time to brush my hair or put real pants on in a day. And I feel that "high pressure" moment when our precious baby cries out in the middle of the night, and I need to figure out whats wrong ... hungry? dirty diaper? cold? hot? just needing a reassuring cuddle? caught some crazy killer jungle virus that's going to land our whole family on 20/20?

Needless to say, the hours for this job are much longer ... :)

and talk about learning dependence on God - whew!

But I've never had a job that's more rewarding than being Benjamin's mom!

"Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain.
Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchman stays awake in vain.
It is in vain that You rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toil,
For He gives His beloved sleep.
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,
the fruit of the womb a reward."
Psalm 127:1-3