Gently Lay Your Head

In a previous post, I referenced the lyrics to "I am" by Jill Phillips, which begins with the lines

oh gently lay your head upon my chest
and I will comfort you like a mother while you rest

This has come back to me several times over the past week as we've been enjoying little Benjamin. I love that feeling when he completely relaxes with his little head on my shoulder - a deep relax that says he feels safe and at rest. He gets upset about things he doesn't understand - why it's necessary to change his diaper or take a bath - but then in those moments when he rests in our arms, he knows that he is loved and cared for.

It has led me to ponder that same dynamic in my own relationship with my Heavenly Father. There are things in life that I don't understand the reason for, and I get so tense and upset about them - why God led us so far from our families at this time in our lives. Or like last week, when I was so upset about having to be induced. I don't know all the reasons for anything, but God has showed Himself faithful to us over and over again. I want to be able to keep that attitude of rest - completely relaxing in His Presence, knowing that He knows much better than I do what I need - just like I know that Benjamin's diaper really needs to be changed, whether he likes it or not.

So this week, each time I enjoy that feeling of Benjamin resting on my shoulder, I am going to let it remind me to rest in God's Presence, giving over to him all the things that I worry about and knowing that His plan for me is so much better than my own.