Does anyone else ever feel like being thankful is an act of your will? It's not that, in general, I'm not grateful to God for countless things, but at certain times, because of my own sin, hormones, or whatever, it's hard to see the forest for the trees, as they say.
I've been feeling weepy today as I contemplate the upcoming holidays, our first to celebrate with our precious baby, but also our first to celebrate so far from our families. And travel takes time. And travel is expensive (sometimes shockingly so, as we discovered during our initial ticket search last night). And airplanes are especially nerve-racking for us because of so many germs and peanuts. And then, if I let myself, a whole snowball of negativity gets started in my head of everything that's wrong or hard or hurts in life.
The reality is, God has been unfailingly faithful (can you say that?) to us over this transition. As I look back, I can't begrudge Him anything - He has provided. And just because He hasn't always provided in the ways that I wanted Him to, doesn't mean He isn't there for me. A very wise woman at Bible study last week pointed out that, "Sometimes we don't know where God is, but He always knows where we are."
Back in the spring when it became apparent that this transition was on the horizon for us, my mom started a list of all the things that God would need to work out on our behalf - from Will's graduation to the moving process to finding a church here. I've been postponing fully celebrating that list because its not complete yet (our house is still on the market) - but who am I to tell God how to provide for me? He promises that when His children ask for bread, He will not give them a stone. (Matthew 7:7-11)
30. webcams
29. our townhouse - cute, cozy, and convenient
28. our church - full of sweet people who have lived out the love of Christ to us
27. a second car - a gracious gift
26. artwork and photographs to hang on my walls
25. an awesome grocery store close to our house
24. a good doctor here
23. a gorgeous park just 5 minutes from us
22. a job that my husband enjoys
21. GRACE!
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